Broken Mirrors and Shattered Hearts

It has occurred to me numerous times. But I didn’t realize its severity and poignancy until now.

I got out of the shower, put on my soccer warm-ups (since we have a game tonight), brushed out my tangled hair and began to dry it. While drying my hair, I noticed that most of my damp hair hung collectively in soaking sections, while random shorter pieces blew in all directions from the warm airstream that poured from the hair dryer. I looked at my reflection after I had finished brushing my hair back into a neat bun on the side of my head. The make-up residue from the day before was smudged under and above my eyes. I dabbed some make-up remover on a tissue and began to wipe away the remaining mascara and eye liner. When my face was bare, I just looked at myself. I saw something that wasn’t good enough. This was plain and boring. Lacking beauty.

I began the task of putting on my make-up for the day, without thinking much of it. I brushed my foundation on, my blush, lined my eyes with a black eye pencil, blended some brown eye shadows onto my lids, and painted my lashes with a few coats of mascara. After 5 to 8 minutes, I was ready to leave. I took a final glance into the mirror. I saw something that was finally good enough. It wasn’t plain or boring. It resembled beauty.

Today’s society has created this mirror for women and teenagers to stare into, which causes us to question our beauty. Today’s society has created this ideal persona, her inner beauty unseen. The tiny models in Glamour or Vogue/Teen Vogue and the beautiful actresses that are displayed on the big screen all have this beauty. This seemingly natural beauty is one that no “normal” girl can replicate. Why is what’s on the outside so important? Why can’t we look past the shell, into the beauty within?

Girls and women alike are created into these unattainable goddesses in Hollywood. I remember thinking recently, “Why can’t I look like her? Sing like her?” I can’t go out in public without looking presentable and I’m conscious of other people’s thoughts about me. Society has masked true beauty with the look on the outside and I find myself falling into the snare every morning. Where is beauty in a world full of ugly people? Now, when I say ugly, I mean ugly on the inside. Lacking true, inner beauty. Do you face the mirror of society or reflect into the beauty within yourself?

How many of the "50 Most Beautiful Female Celebrities" listed s are you willing to compare yourself to?
http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/sns-50-most-beautiful-celebs-pictures,0,900787.photogallery

customhomesandremodeling.net. 3 March, 2011.

Back to Yesterday

Before the world's clutter invaded the peaceful streets of my mind, I believed nothing bad could happen to me. The sky was always blue. The grass green. And the sun, a bright star shining for me. The world was at peace. That was then...

In today's society, the sky is no longer blue, the grass no longer green, and the sun just seems to create large shadows for the world to cower in. My world is consumed with the ways of the real world. I've always had a problem with the way people live. They're ignorant and naive. They know nothing. They're lifeless robots that clank and clatter through life with no purpose or motivation. The only thing on their mind is...themselves. Their motto, "Its better to ask for forgiveness than permission". Where is the good in this?

To the World...

There are so many awful and terrible things that today's society promotes. Not to mention the fact, that the world has so many outlets and ways to reach the ignorant. The media is filth. I heard a rap song the other day and I was appalled by how he described his female "friends". Where did degrading remarks towards others become "okay" or "normal"? Did that man's father teach him that by the way he acted towards his wife? There is no respect for others or women these days and it's unfortunate.

The world is gambling. Society's image of popularity is: be a drinker, be a smoker, be a "go-getta", and be "YOURSELF". How can you be yourself with society's mirror image reflecting back at you an image of disaster and lacking self worth. There are many teenagers getting into the inescapable box of drug addiction and alcoholism because of this. Who are you? What are you trying to be?

The immorality of the world is disgusting and repulsive. Society twists the meaning of words like "respect" and "love" into unnatural and impure things. To gain respect, you have to earn it. Sell the most drugs on the street. Drink more than "so and so". Sleep with "that girl or boy". Respect, according to Dictionary.com, is "esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability". Everyone "deserves" respect and I was raised to respect everyone. Of course, everyone's not perfect. I've been disrespectful, but never on such a level as society promotes. You say, "Yes m'am or Yes sir", not "Yeah" or "Whatever dude". I've noticed so many parents are caught up in their own business and lives, that they aren't guarding their families. Teenagers are cussing in front of younger siblings, which later spread their new vocabulary to their friends. I had never heard the "f-bomb" until late middle school or early high school, however, one of the children in my sister's fourth grade class shared it with her and her classmates. This is UNACCEPTABLE. Love, a feeling that one cannot describe, is EVERYWHERE today. Unnatural love (same-sex relationships) are promoted, while the one man and one woman unified in Holy Matrimony has been reduced to rarity. To me, love is one man, one time, forever. I want to be married, ONCE. I want to only "be with" ONE person. Society has an inclination to leave out the side effects of multiple loves and lovers. A relationship is between 2 people, not 2 people and a mistress. Love is pure and respect and today's relationships are FAR from purity or respect. Today, love is being with someone for a few days then breaking up. Today, love is leaving your girlfriend or boyfriend for someone you've been secretly talking to for a year and a half. Today, love is fake, a fraud, deceptive.

The world is impure, the people in it are cruel, and there is an ambush waiting on every television channel and radio station, even literature. So where does one find their identity in this selfish and unclean world?

Ask me.

Hussain, Bader. Beautiful Landscapes. Blog-spot. Web. 3 March, 2011.